why does it sounds so crazy?

i'm here, you know?
i'm ready. i'm not scared, i'm willing to take the risk.
i'm done fooling around, i'm done with the getting over,
i've done my "alone time", i'm in peace with myself
i'm actually ready to give my best.
to take my chances and really try to make it work
to get hurted, and heal. to give myself completaly to someone else.
but there's no one. there's nobody here.
everyone is so fucking scared to even think about it
everyone's just not there yet.
and i get it, it's not something you choose.
and i am not gonna fall for someone i can't have. or doesn't want me.
i'm not gonna fool myself into it. (again)

but then i'll just wait.
wait for someone who's not too scared or inmature to come along.
and it sounds so idealistic and utopic. and naive.

there's no prince charming around. no helpless little dame to rescue.
just intimacy troubles and commitment-fobia wherever i look.

i mean i don't wanna get married. i don't need to move in together
or adopt a cat or a chid. i just want a mature relationship,
with someone capable of adult-thinking and making plans at least two weeks in advance.

where's someone looking for me? where are the people ready to take that chance?
where are the people that are not scared to fall in love?

am i just insaine?
i'm ready to fall in love again.